Things Better Left Unsaid #Storytime


“Why, you might ask, does Marcia live behind this place,” Daniel asked, after they’d escaped out the back door of the Hari Krishna Institute.

They’d been lucky. The Krishnas were in the middle of a celebration and ignored the four potential converts in their midst. However, shepherding the girls through their orgy of the senses had been difficult. Men, women, and children swirled mindlessly around them, through clouds of burnt cooking oil and sandalwood incense to the rhythm of slapped bongo drums and rattled tambourines, intoxicating and hypnotizing the three road weary girls. Only out in the fresh air, had he allowed them to stop a forward motion.

“Believe it or not, they’ll keep swirling and twirling and banging those drums until they pass out and then, in morning, why, I’ve seen men leave that place in business suits and carrying brief cases. Investment bankers on Wall Street during the day. Krishnas at night.” Daniel joked as he led the girls across a cobblestone courtyard to the carriage house. “You’re kidding!”

“I am not.” The second floor was dark. Troubling. However, the doors to both the stairwell and to the flat were unlocked. That was a good sign. “Marcia thinks the Krishnas will protect her,” he chuckled as he led them inside. “She never locks her door.”

Looking around a room lit only by the Krishna’s celebrations, he recognized the two beanbag chairs they’d sewn together over popcorn and beer one night and a wooden coffee table left behind by a previous tenant for obvious reasons. The clincher that she hadn’t moved was good old Che still hanging on the wall next to the kitchenette. It was a poster of Guevara that Marcia’d had since college, the dead revolutionary, so young, so handsome, and so dangerous.

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“Marcia?” He called as he flipped on the light over the sink. In response he heard two sets of voices coming from the bedroom. She wasn’t alone. What made him think she would be?

“It appears we’ve stumbled into something,” he said. The girl he’d called the Catholic caught his meaning. She was the tallest of the three and model-thin. Her long black hair and white skin seemed to set in marble a pair of blue eyes, unnervingly intense and crystal blue eyes. Compared to her, the ringleader (Venus of the Sewers) looked less like a goddess and more like the neighborhood tomboy. The third girl, who reminded Daniel of a young Eleanor Roosevelt, seemed to be trying to hide behind her friends.

The mumbling from the bedroom continued. “Marcia?” He repeated.

“Is that you Daniel?” Was the response.

“No, it’s Che Guevara.”

Marcia opened the door. She’d slipped a flowered house dress hastily over her head, which, on any other woman would look drab and shapeless but not on her. “My God, Daniel. How long has it been? I thought you’d finally given up on New York City and gone to live on Walden Pond.”

“No. I’ve been here. Well, around.  Here.”

She spotted the girls and turned her questioning eyes on him.

“You remember what it is to be adrift in this city without friends?” he asked. “It hasn’t been that long.”

“My God Daniel. I haven’t seen you in over a year and now you show up with three runaways?”

“A year? No, that’s not possible. It hasn’t been that long, certainly not in meaningful days and you can’t count my useless days – for which I’ve had many – against me. For the angel who talked with me came again, and waked me, like a man that is wakened out of his sleep.”

“Daniel? Old Testament now?”

“Daniel saved our lives! We were completely out of gas —we had no place to go. We would have been killed or worse.”

“He can’t help himself. He’s a Jesuit.”

“Was…was a Jesuit. No longer.”

“That’s right Daniel, I forgot. Now, you’re the Anti-Christ. How old are you girls?”

“I’m eighteen. My name is Bronte and this is Nora and Ellie.”

“Bronte? That’s an unusual name. Did you make it up? You don’t look eighteen. Are you runaways?”

“No, we’re not runaways. We’re musicians. Ellie and I play the guitars and Nora sings and she’s got a really good voice, just like Cher. We tried getting jobs in Montreal but the Canadians wouldn’t give us work permits cause there are too many Americans up there trying to avoid the draft. So we came down here.”

“To New York City? Do you know anyone in the city? “

They shook their heads no. “See, even stupider than we were when you came here to save the world and I came here to escape from God.”

“Escape from God? Is that what you’re calling your mother these days.”

“Heretic!” Daniel returned. Her face, despite the years spent in New York City working on hopeless causes, had not changed. It was still springtime and fresh air. Freckles swam across her nose like wandering stars, making her look much younger than she was. Meanwhile his hairline receded, the lenses in his glasses thickened each year and, the grime of city air had rendered his complexion dull and grey.

Before she could respond, the door to the bedroom opened and what emerged, albeit shyly, was a lawyer. Of that fact, Daniel was one hundred percent certain.

It was then that he said things he never should have said, opened Pandora’s Box and let evil take flight.

Next time: The Hunter Returns

The Institute #StoryTime

Recap thus far: Daniel convinces the girls that they will be safe at his friend Marcia’s place and that it’s not too long a walk. However halfway on their journey he hears one of the girls call out in distress and turns to see …


“Oh baby, baby,” the behemoth moaned as he dragged the girl back into his alley like a long lost Teddy Bear tucked under his arm. “Come with Daddy.”

Henry Clarke Illustration for The Mystery of Marie Roget by EA Poe

“Let me go,” she screamed heaving a guitar case into his chest. He twisted the case from her hand and threw it to the ground.

“Come on now, honey bunches,” he laughed, “be good to your man.”

Find something to distract him, Daniel thought looking around for a board or brick. The creature was nearly seven feet tall and had draped himself in a mountain of shredded blankets and rugs. In his world, and according to his set of ethos, he’d been able to nap a sweet young thing who’d wandered directly into his web and, per the rules of the streets, she was his. A gift from the heavens! Sweet nectar to ward off a dark and rainy night! Daniel knew that nothing he had to offer could compare. The other two girls began assaulting the beast with pillowcases full of clothes which he laughed off. To a man his size they were nothing more than yapping pups who could be slammed against the brick walls and kicked to the curbs when they were no longer entertaining.

Somehow the captive girl managed to reach into her coat and withdraw a crucifix.

“Holy Mary, Mother of God!” She thrust the cross into the creature’s face. “Pray for us sinners now and at the moment of our death.” His eyes widened. What’s this bauble my pet dangles in my face? But after he recognized the symbol he flung his head back and howled with laughter. Daniel froze. The girls froze. The creature seemed to be expanding! Growing taller and wider, his laughter now a cruel wail evoking stray dogs to join in from their dark and distant corners. The girl continued on: “Holy Mary, Mother of God …”

And this is hell, Daniel thought. But … the laughter soon shook loose the phlegm trapped in the creature’s lungs, and, choking on spittle, he began hacking so violently that he had no choice but to release the girl and lean into a nearby wall to gasp for breath.

“A crucifix isn’t going to save you down here, Catholic!” Daniel said, pulling the girl away from her awe-struck stance. “It just distracted him for a minute. Grab your stuff and let’s get out of here … “

“I’m not a Catholic!”

“Her mother’s a Catholic,” Venus of the Sewers said. “She’s what they call a …”

“Run!” There was no time for meaningless debate. Run! And run they did … right down the middle of the street … their shoes sounding like heartbeats on the cobblestone streets. Each time they tried to stop for breath, Daniel urged them on. On and on until they reached a neighborhood that had not been completely abandoned to night creatures. Here and there were pockets of light; storefronts that were only gated for the night and not boarded up forever, lights in the windows on the upper floors and even a car or two rolling past at a normal speed. “Okay … we’re almost there. We can stop for a second.” The rain had softened to a light mist. Even the sky seemed lighter. Gradually his heart stopped thumping in his ear like an out of control freight train and, as it did, he heard … the sound of evening prayers.

“At least they haven’t moved,” he said.

“Who? What’s that sound?”

“It sounds like bells.”

“No wind chimes.”

“You’ll see.”

They rounded the corner of Marcia’s street and sure enough. There they were, twirling and chanting in the light shining onto the street from storefront windows. Dozens of men, women and children in white robes oblivious to the mist, any passing cars, and the behemoths who hid in dark alleyways, shaking their bells and bangles in celebration of the Great God Krishna.

“Behold the International Institute of the Hari Krishnas! Marcia lives behind the Institute. Follow me closely and don’t look any of them in the eye otherwise you will be lost forever.”

“You’re kidding.”

“Ha! Compared to the fervor of a dedicated Krishna, that chap we tangled with earlier was a rank amateur!”


Next (in a couple of weeks as I am going on vacation): Evening Prayers and Things Better off Unsaid

Those of you who’ve been following along have probably guessed this is the story of Sandy and Nora from The Face in the Background (the first episode) and their adventures in New York City as young women. It would be lovely to think that, with the help of his friend Marcia, Daniel will be able to convince these silly girls to go home. It would be lovely but do you think that’s what’s going to happen?

The Behemoth #StoryTime

Dear Readers: If you miss an episode or two and just want to catch up on the action, the short and sweet summaries of all the episodes thus far are here.

To recap: Daniel can’t abandoned the three girls who, desperate for gas, have driven up to the service station where he works after closing. He considers walking them to a Catholic refuge he knows well and then remembers he knows someone who lives closer. The heavy mist is turning to rain, the temperatures are dropping fast and the ghost ships have begun their nightly quest for new crew members, or so say the winos.

And now, The Behemoth …


“I have a friend you can crash with for the night. It’s not too far and you’ll be safe.” Daniel said.  

The girls stared at him mutely. “She’s a social worker.” His socks were wet. The next time his mother came to town he decided that he’d show her the holes in his shoes. She’d insist on buying him at least two pairs of new shoes, one of which he would give to the first shoe-less street person he met, of course. That would make her happy. She wanted Jesus as a son but a well dressed Jesus, not a scruffy one.

“What choice do you have? You can’t sleep in the car. Not in this neighborhood.”

“But are you sure she won’t mind having strange people in her place?”

“No. Not Marcia. I’ve known her a long time. But hurry up and decide.” Daniel knew what happened after dark in that part of town. The needy and vague-eyed — from drink or drug or mental illness — materialized from the crevices of abandoned buildings, crying and moaning and demanding money while in the distance sirens wailed, but always in the distance. A loud crack echoed in the alley across the street, probably just a trashcan being emptied for use as shelter from the rain, but it sounded like gunfire.

“Okay.” They mumbled and began unloading their valuables from the car. One of the girls handed Daniel a terracotta sculpture of a young man’s head. “This is Aragorn. He goes everywhere with us.”

“You know, from the Lord of the Rings.”

“Aragorn?” The thing weighed a ton.

“Oh yeah? Leave him here. No one is going to steal him. I know what. He can be Aragorn, Defender of the Volvo.” Giggling they set the sculpture down on the driver’s seat where in the dim light it looked like a severed head.

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Loaded down with guitars and pillowcases filled with clothes, the girls followed Daniel as he navigated sidewalks littered with broken glass, past boarded up storefronts and trash-filled alleyways, always careful not to step into gutters filled with urine and blood and vomit and even worse. He felt like he was leading a trio of ducklings to their doom. Wide-eyed, unfocused, gullible ducklings. Every now and then they heard a scream or a car screeching on the rain-slicked streets, normal sounds for that part of the city but he could tell from the gasps behind him, they would not last long in the city.

Soon they would be begging to return home to a safe suburb where the lights are out by ten and the police have little more to do than investigate mailbox crime. Especially if Marcia worked her social worker magic.

And than it dawned on him. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d seen Marcia. One summer had passed, at least. Maybe two. During that time, he’d moved many times. Maybe she had too. Maybe she’d married and moved to the suburbs. Maybe she’d died. Maybe he’d be forced to walk the girls all the way to Father Frank’s. Maybe that was a better plan in the first place. Maybe, maybe, maybe.

His moment of existential crisis was broken by a loud scream: “LET ME GO!”

He turned and his blood froze. The Behemoth had grabbed one of the girls and was dragging her into a dark alley.

Illustration for Murders of Rue Morgue by Henry Clarke

Next: The Institute

Dad Comes for a Visit #GhostStories

In 1984 I stumbled upon a class in sculpting the human form. It was being held in the community center next to my son’s nursery school and during the same hours as he would be in school. Perfect for a hyper-busy mom. For the next three years our small group of amateur sculptors met once a week. Then our instructor began having health problems. Others in the group also faced life changing issues (including me) and so the group dissolved.

Thereafter I had only friends and family members to cajole into posing for me. Probably my easiest catch was my father. I guess he may have been a little vain!

After his unexpected death In 2006, my stepmother told me their two basset hounds sat beneath his sculpture every morning for about a month and howled piteously. Sometimes she’d enter the living room and there he’d be, sitting on the couch next to his sculpture reading a book as though nothing had happened. As though that night was like all the others he’d spent in that room, on that couch, reading a book. Death had been only an illusion. Anyway, my stepmother had a few good years after his death and then began to rapidly decline. Their house was sold and the sculpture came back to me.

In June 2019 I was on my way to answer the phone in the kitchen when I noticed that my father’s sculpture had begun to glow.

So I took a quick picture and then answered the phone. My stepmother had just passed away.

The boundaries which divide life from death are at best shadowy and vague. Who shall say where the one ends and the other begins.

The Premature Burial, Edgar Allen Poe

Have you ever been visited? Cue the spooky music.

Scary Doors #ThursdayDoors

Here in Northern California we are just getting our electricity turned back on.  Since we were warned that the outage could last for several days and my devices are all old and in need to new batteries, I have basically been off-line since Saturday night.  I only turned on the EyePhone once every couple of hours for updates on the numerous fires in my area.  So for this week’s ThursdayDoors, Norm’s Frampton’s photo challenge which I truly enjoy and hate to miss out on, here are some scary doors from over the years!

Renwick Ruin,  Roosevelt Island, New York City.  For many emigrants, their only home in America if they were unfortunate enough to have contracted small pox. This place really gave me the willies.

Franklin Delano Roosevelt Monument, Washington DC.  Frightening because it could happen again.

Fort Sumter, South Carolina, where many soldiers were bombarded for days by their fellow countrymen.

Amtrak Tunnel.  Just spooky is all.  Happy Halloween everyone!

Vampire Lives Matter?

All the colors found in the skin tone of a typical Caucasian. Note, white is the last one.

The only thing I have to say to all those people parading around with White Lives Matter posters is, you’re not white. Often you’re raw siena and alizarin crimson, or you’re cadmium yellow and carmine. You have aquamarine or viridian – depending on the amount of yellow in your skin tone – in the hollows of your cheeks, under your chin and along your hairline. 

But guess whose skin tone is mixed using mostly titanium white?  Vlad the Impaler, otherwise known as Dracula. So my take away is that y’all White Lives Matter folks are trying to save your guy, Drac, from that evil Buffy the Vampire Slayer, right?  Such a kindly gesture and come Halloween night, I’m sure he’ll slither on down your chimney to say thanks and invite you to donate to his favorite charity, Vlad’s Blood Bank.

But seriously, if those White Lives folks want to know who really matters, they should go to a museum.  Might I suggest the one below?

It’s the National Museum of African American History and Culture in Washington D.C. When you first enter this museum, you are directed to an elevator large enough to fit a football team and taken three flights underground. There, in the dim light, you relive the experience of being chained together in the dark, dank bowels of a wooden sailing vessel with no idea where you are going or what will happen to you or the ones you love.   As you make your way up the ramps leading from floor to floor, the often bloody history of the African American struggle for equality unfolds.  I didn’t get many pictures as the halls were dark and the atmosphere, reverent.

In contrast, the upper floors of the museum are full of light, color and music as they celebrate the contributions of African Americans to our culture. You leave those floors grateful that Black Lives really do matter and without them, American culture would certainly not be the envy of the world. Think the experience would cause those White Lifers to change their attitudes?

Happy Halloween everyone!  I hope you all spend it with the people who matter the most to you.

From Brownie Fright Night

So Say the Winos, Part 6

“My God, Daniel. How long has it been?” Marcia’d slipped a flowered house dress hastily over her hair. On any other woman it would look drab and shapeless but not on her. “I thought you’d finally given up on New York City and gone to live on Walden Pond.”andrewwyeth-siri-large

“No. I’ve been here. Well, around.  Here.”

She spotted the girls and turned her questioning eyes on him.

“You remember what it is to be adrift in this city without friends?” he asked. “It hasn’t been that long.”

“My God Daniel. I haven’t seen you in over a year and now you show up with three runaways?”

“A year? No, that’s not possible. It hasn’t been that long, certainly not in meaningful days and you can’t count my useless days – for which I’ve had many – against me. For the angel who talked with me came again, and waked me, like a man that is wakened out of his sleep.”

“Daniel…” She smiled. “Still hiding behind scripture.”

He’d forgotten how petite and fragile she was, especially considering the type of work she did.Venus of the Sewers came to his defense.“Daniel saved our lives! We were completely out of gas —we had no place to go. We would have been killed or worse.”

“He can’t help himself. He’s a Jesuit.”

“Was…was a Jesuit. No longer.”

“That’s right Daniel, I forgot. Now, you’re the Anti-Christ. How old are you girls?”

“I’m eighteen. My name is Bronte and this is Claire and Fiona.” Venus began, referring first to young Eleanor Roosevelt and then to the Catholic’s daughter.

“Bronte? That’s an unusual name. Did you make it up? You don’t look eighteen. Are you runaways?”

“No, we’re not runaways. And I really am eighteen. We’re musicians. Claire and I play the guitars and Fiona sings and she’s got a really good voice, just like Cher. We tried getting jobs in Montreal but the Canadians wouldn’t give us work permits cause there are too many Americans up there trying to avoid the draft. So we came down here.”

“To New York City? Do you know anyone in the city? “

They shook their heads no. “See, even stupider than we were when you came here to save the world and I came here to escape from God.” Daniel perched himself on the extra-wide window casing. In front of him was an ironing board, one that never got put away.

The girls still stood by the door uncertain of whether they’d be asked to stay.

“Escape from God? Is that what you’re calling your mother these days,” Marcia laughed.

th“Heretic!” Daniel returned. Her face, despite years spent in New York City working on hopeless causes, had not changed. It was still springtime and fresh air. Freckles swam across her nose like wandering stars, making her look much younger than she was. Meanwhile his hairline receded, the lens in his glasses thickened each year and the grime of city air had rendered his complexion dull and grey. He remembered the first time he’d met her. She’d come with his family to see him act badly in the annual Passion Play. He loved how happy his sister’d looked. They were Irish twins and as children had been inseparable; able to read each other’s thoughts and feel each other’s pain. When he went away to seminary she suffered. He could feel it. But she’d finally found a friend, a friend who would treat her mother’s direct line to God the same way she did – with a scoff.

But he’d underestimated his mother.